I’m older now, child parts, inside

demolition of the concrete (tornado, absorbing the pretty) Heart is still there

a strangely, beautifully wonderful thought, tarastar.substack.com Dogs they net the moment, Live within it Snatching magic, it’s not caught

fluctuations and lack of feelings. discomfort in the body. ‘Should’. defence mechanisms

TTPD. The Manuscript - How likely that I could have future fertility issues due to your lies? How foolish that I ‘trusted’ you

Once I’m with the Wizard

To attach.

Idea in progress, days of, the 1 - notes

I get there, evolving moments, unease, 3

Have to get the tears over with

lifting

Eyes open, keep it there tonight

brutal denial, you are not alone, needs still there

By any force necessary, closed off, brain gone, numb

poetry and impeaches, St James’ willows, Taylo Swift from Midnights ‘You’re on your own Kid’ , London

repetitive thoughts, slowly being more nourishing, slowly the loving ones getting less ignored

Plasticine, Miss you, miss the calm you bring, reach within me Neuroplasticity spoken words

Things shouldn’t be the way they were, just because they’ve always been, trauma, doesn’t make sense, change, move forward, growth

poetic thoughts, came from a lyric

A zap and a flash, my brain goes. Back to almost-existing, soul strength and self criticism mash